The Sum of Me

 

The Sum of Me

 

Shunned and disqualified from the pastorate, I held my diagnosis like a disease. My moods, infected by the devil, were a treacherous  battleground in need of salvation. However, I still choose medication over prayer, and my worth as a spiritual leader plummeted. Hope along with it. Nothing has paralleled that despair in my adult life. Not my divorce, not my postpartum ptsd, not even my hospitalization. So, for my safety, I hide my disbelief in a family full of believers.

 

coming out
I write a poem
for all to see

 

Under the Basho – Haibun Section – 2018

Afterlife

 

AFTERLIFE

 

saying no
what the holy spirit
never taught me

 

wine glass
my testimony
becomes obsolete

 

bisexual
undoing
every prayer

 

hand-me-downs
my sister and I
trade religions

 

street preacher
I count myself
among the damned

 

make-up sex
what would have been
grace

 

stargazing
what I thought was a miracle
now a mystery

 

church bells
the altar no longer
my home

 

Scryptic Magazine 2.3

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