godless…

godless…
enough just to see
the sunrise

 

parting word…
sunset unfurls
over an empty yard

 

folding
into myself
ocean wave

 

Akitsu Quarterly – Fall 2019

Leftover Ribbon Now Available

 

It’s finally here! My first chapbook, Leftover Ribbon, is now available for purchase.

These poems tell my story of becoming and being a mother with the moments of beauty and sorrow it has brought, from birth trauma to bipolar disorder to potty training and sex after kids. It took a year and half for this book to see the light of day and I am ever grateful to Velvet Dusk Publishing for making it a reality. I hope you check it out and enjoy!

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his hand…

 

his hand where
my husband’s should be
office visit

 

pap smear
if only 
I was a boy

 

birth control denied

 

domestic abuse
taking the hit
like a girl

 

preacher’s wife
no choice
but to be a mother

 

#FemkuMag Issue 13

 

Under the Covers

 

Under the Covers

 

Pentecost
you say we aren’t like
those other christians

 

just
one of the girls
purity ring

 

if not me
then someone else
pastor’s erection

 

the weight of his hand
as he pushes me down
Alpha and Omega

 

end times
all I need
to say yes

 

 

a stumbling block
for the pastor’s wife
my strapless dress

 

women’s retreat
not looking away
as we undress

 

hidden bruises
only my mouth needed
for the Eucharist

 

getting what
I deserve
cervical cancer

 

call for salvation
I raise my hand again
and again

 

Bleached Butterfly – Issue One

morning glories…

 

the child
we didn’t plan – 
morning glories

 

spring equinox
too pregnant to sit
too pregnant to stand

 

green again
her pigtails
become the sky

 

Akitsu Quarterly – Summer 2019

Renewal

 

Renewal

 

As our children are off running around the indoor playground we have sought refuge in, I disclose to my friend that I have never gardened before. With our new house and spring approaching I ask for some tips on what to do about all the empty beds in our backyard. After an appraising look she replies, “Don’t buy anything you can easily kill.”

 

couples counseling
we circle back
to the beginning

Human/Kind Journal Issue 1.5

at first sight

 

at first sight

 

conversion
the love
I could never have

 

confessing
every sin
first date

 

engagement photos
only our feet
touch

 

wedding night
I pretend
he’s my first

 

role-play
I perfect
submission

 

finally winning
God’s approval
first pregnancy

 

pastor’s wife
my first name
forgotten

 

our daughter’s smile
you tell me
you never believed

 

new haircut
shedding
my fundamentalism

 

all that’s left
the rings
we no longer wear

 

#FemkuMag Issue 11

 

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